New Foreigner Book!


a few hardcovers and pbs available from Closed Circle, signed. Latest: Moonlover and the Fountain of Blood, Jane Fancher short story. Chernevog, part 2 of the Rusalka trilogy co-written by CJ and Jane; and Orion's Children, a tetralogy from Lynn.

This is not good…

…Ordinarily I can write through anything. Anything. OTOH—something’s different today. My eyes are still bothering me. Up until yesterday I could write past that. But right now it’s like I keep putting thoughts into the basket and while I’m putting one in, all the others are falling out.

I have a feeling it’s one of the two meds–either the stuff to keep the eyes dilated—or the Prednisone derivative…that I’m supposed to be on all next week, and through next weekend. This is going to be a living hell. No kidding. A writer in mid scene who can’t write is not a happy creature.

23 comments to This is not good…

  • adrianne

    I’d bet on the steroid. I suffer from MCS and focus is one of the first things to go when I get hit with something my system doesn’t like. The dialating drops don’t affect me. But anything that mucks with my hormone system is a disaster…

    I hope you can settle the eye problem down ASAP.

  • TabCat2

    I second that,adrianne; I bet it is the prednisone. Steroids do weird things to the human body and psyche. A WEEK of that? I’d call the doctor and see if there’s any other medication that would not cause such a reaction!

  • Dragonrider Gal

    *sigh* I hope you will stop believing that pharmaceutical solutions are the best and only ones pretty soon. At least, try the rue-fennel eyewash and olive oil. I’m not sure how much the olive oil will help if you are using those synthetic drying medications, though. I will be quite upset if my favorite author loses her vision!! I’m just selfish that way. ๐Ÿ™

  • Dragonrider Gal

    Or if it’s an ‘auto-immune’ disease, usually there are parasites involved. The body isn’t attacking itself, it’s attacking the parasites which the medical industry doesn’t seem to recognize or even acknowledge.

    They, like us, are trained to think we wonderful 1st worlders are somehow immune to having parasites, although we don’t do anything to divest ourselves of them. That’s what the cod liver oil and caster oil were for, in the more recent past. To kill parasites.

    Nowadays with all the toxins accumulating in our bodies, it allows parasites, like the pancreatic sheep fluke, to live their entire life cycle in the human pancreas, instead of having to go back to the sheep for some of it. Hence the upsurge in diabetes, which I’ve gotten rid of thru deparasiting and detoxing. So, here we go even further outside the ‘medical industry’ propaganda.

    If the eye condition persists even after the rue-fennel, you might consider doing a parasite clease. I can send you information about a good one if you want, or you can reference Dr. Hulda Clark’s work although you might have to google her using the word zapper, since most search engines have her name blocked. ๐Ÿ™

    • Etidorhpa

      Strange indeed that Hulda Clark, author of “The Cure for All Cancers,” died of… cancer.

      So much for the “Super-Zapper Deluxe,” which appears to have been relabeled Tandy surplus in the first place.

  • WOL

    I’d bet it’s the steroids, too. However, it could be a generics versus brand name thing. Most docs nowadays write prescriptions in such a way that they can be filled by either the generic or the brand name. But, there are certain times (and certain people) when it makes a big difference whether you’re using generic or brand name. You could be sensitive to the suspension medium, or a buffering agent, or something.

    But then again, it could be your unique metabolism — It’s a pity you can’t donate your metabolism to science. It would be a biochemist’s delight — LOL!

  • Is there any way that you could just record things? I realize that’s pretty much the same as sitting down and typing, but then again, not quite.

    take care!

  • CJ

    Well, it was bad this morning. The brain seems to be functioning a bit better this afternoon. I hope this lasts. Sometimes it’s a ‘crest’ sort of thing and it smooths out. I’m not jittery. I think. (Reprise of George of the Jungle discovers java)…

  • CJ

    I have managed to accurately erase a bad bit and have subbed in 8 good sentences. This may be the ONLY progress for today, but that 8th sentence finishes this scene and sets up the next, which is almost as good as writing the second scene.

  • I know this is a mental distraction you are discussing, but have you considered a dictation program like dragon to take down the rough draft and thus reweave stress on the eyes?

  • CJ

    THanks, Spence. I had Dragon in its earlier phase and I just can’t stop Bren’s dialogue to say “comma close-quote paragraph indent open quote…” It’s just crazy-making. But if I ever have a serious vision problem, I’ll accommodate it.

  • I’m sorry, but as someone who went with only one good eye for almost 53 years, I would be remiss in not protesting the use of any herbal in the eye. It might be perfectly safe, and then again it might not. After all, I like and can eat onions – CJ and Jane can’t. They’re herbals, organic, pure vegetable, but don’t agree with everyone.

    However, unless any of us here are medical doctors and know exactly what is wrong with CJ’s eyes, we shouldn’t be “prescribing” anything. I personally would feel terrible if I suggested something that turned out to make the problem worse, or that completely blinded her.

    CJ, I saw a commercial for Dragon last week, it seems to have actually gotten intuitive, although that might have been one of those “your results may vary”. You might call the ophthalmologist’s office and see if she can give you any idea what might be causing this problem. In the meantime, you should not just stop using the prednisone until it’s been established to have been the problem, and then if you need to come off it gradually, do it that way.

    • Dragonrider Gal

      I would say one would be remiss to suggest trusting the medical and pharmaceutical industry. They don’t have our best interests at heart. Their only goals are to keep you alive long enough to get all your money, and sell as many drugs as possible in the meantime. So the more drugs they can prescribe the better and not necessarily ones that actually help. Sadly, MANY people are unable to see that fact, and many have lost their lives due to that ‘trust’. Did you know that doctors and their drugs are the third leading cause of death in the US, killing over 22,000 people, 106,000 of those from *non-error* (in other words, correctly prescribed) negative effects of drugs, with another 7000 in medication errors.

      Herbs and supplements, on the other hand, haven’t killed anyone to my knowledge. There was that Tryptophan scare back in 1989 where like 8 people died, but considering how long that supplement was on the market, and all of a sudden it was killing people says to me that it is far more likely that the deaths were caused by some sort of contaminant in the tryptophan. Of course the FDA was so anxious to serve their master’s agenda, it wasn’t even tested to see if that was the case. It was just banned. So, tell me again how dangerous herbs and such are?? Of course if you overdose on anything, aspirin even, you’ll have negative results, but from what I’ve seen, it’s still much safer even to overdose on herbs, than it is on ANY prescription medication.

      It is a very sad day when people are so brainwashed that they can’t even do their own research and instead prefer to believe that some (pharmaceutically trained) ‘expert’ with his pills knows better than them what’s right for their body, like we’re not living in it nor smart enough to do some research on our own. They have got us SO brainwashed.

      And it is highly unlikely that a herbal remedy would cause blindness, especially with only one use. I’m not saying put undiluted hydrogen peroxide in her eye or anything! Sheesh. I and at least 5 other people I know have successfully used the rue-fennel eyewash with only the best results, and I have repeatedly told CJ how to muscle test for whether or not she’s allergic. She doesn’t have to risk using it blindly. Muscle testing is quite effective for health issues especially. Check out Dr. David Hawkins book, “Power vs Force” for more specifics on that technique.

      • Dragonrider Gal

        Oh, and that information about Doctors being the 3rd leading cause of death was from the Journal of the American Medical Association which also has the statistics of how many people were disabled or seriously injured by their doctor’s recommended treatments, and the numbers I quoted are just from hospital deaths, and does not include the 199,000 more deaths that were caused from outpatient treatment.

      • Dragonrider Gal

        Dang.. I missed typing in the 5 in the total hospital deaths… it should be 225,000.

      • T-reg

        “Herbs and supplements, on the other hand, havenโ€™t killed anyone to my knowledge.”

        Hemlock, Abrus precatorius (chewing a single seed can kill an adult human!), the deadly nightshade (Atropa belladonna), Ricinus communis (the castor plant – seeds are fatally poisonous), Strychnine, Datura – all of these are herbs which have been known to kill humans.

        Hemlock is a VERY famous example.
        The deadly night shade also has a historically famous example for its use as an effective and fatal poison.
        It is surprising then that “Herbs and supplements, on the other hand, havenโ€™t killed anyone to my [sic] knowledge.”

        Interestingly, belladonna has been used in LOW DOSES as a medicine. (Funny how something that is bad is not consistently bad)

        Vitamins A and D are supplements and are also essential for the body, but in high doses they do prove to be fatal. (Funny how something that is good is not consistently good)

        This is the problem with the half-baked approach you seem to have towards diseases and their treatment. You seem to observe an effect but never think about checking if the effect is real and not coincidental. You don’t seem to question whether your eyes/mind is playing tricks on you. Seeing an oasis in a desert from a distance does not necessarily mean that it is exactly where you can see it to be. It could be a mirage.

        Further, as in the examples above, you have a false dichotomy of good vs bad, when in reality, it is various shades between the two. You don’t ever seem to determine up to which shade it is acceptably good.
        It would seem that according to you, if something is good, ALL of it MUST be good; if it is bad, ALL of it MUST be bad. I’m sorry, but reality works quite differently from that.

  • kokipy

    You don’t need me to chime in, I know , but maybe two week lenses are not so good, in general. Some time ago I segued from that to taking them out every night. Not the worst thing in the world, and I recently got Costco glasses that transition from near to mid range to far – very successful (and I am very astigmatic and very nearsighted). I know you need to get over the recent unpleasantness.. But please give thought to what works best going forward. Hugs to you!

  • Any meds tend to make me either very hyper or else knock me out or make me so dopey I might as well be knocked out. They sure did when I was a skinny kid/teen. They still tend to now.

    CJ, I will test out the Dragon Dictation app I spoke of earlier. I will give it a good workout and see if does better with dictation of typical novel prose, i.e., narrative, dialogue, narrative, dialogue, foreign or alien words, that kind of thing. I can throw French and Spanish at it, or heck, something more exotic. I can throw plenty of “alien” words at it and see how it does.

    I’ll let you know sometime this weekend how it does, via email and a more basic blog comment.

    I had got, but hadn’t yet installed, Dragon for my computer. It might help me. (Recall I’m low-vision anyway.)

    Even if it’s not an ideal solution, it might help you while your eyes need rest and your thinking’s wonky from meds. Heck, even simply recording straight audio, talking out the story, and later transcribing it, might give you some of the relief you’re craving for your imagination, talent, and drive to get work done.

    But despite any worries about income — gods-blast, ker CJ, which is better, a brief, if enforced, vacation during the holidays, and resuming later refreshed; or driving yourself up the wall crazy-making because you’re too tired/stressed/sick to do what is both pleasure and paying work for you? We’re coming right up on the holidays as it is. You should get a little time off for good behavior. ๐Ÿ™‚ Think how much more productive you’d be after some time to recharge and regroup.

    And OK, OK, you’re still going to be thinking about story anyway, so fine, record it into audio, Dragon or not. ๐Ÿ˜€

    You really, really need a hug, nice lady. Jane is not the only one around there who puts too gods-be-feathered much pressure on herself to get everything done right now. You’re neither one accelerating towards jump or caught Between during jump, wandering the ship like ker Chur. So *please* let yourself be. You’re fast, you’re talented, but you’re not Superwoman, eh? Even if you did write a Lois and Clark novel. Hmm, come to think of it, I haven’t read that….

    Heh. Take care of yourself. You two are fine people, long-distance or otherwise.

    Frell, if you’re shy of doing the audio, write flippin’ longhand, notebooks. Yes, a pain, but any port in a storm. It at least would give you creative outlet. Maybe sketch some?

    Whatever satisfies that work ethic and that creative spark. ๐Ÿ™‚

  • I think I have nothing to add to the comments regarding care or rest (except dictation).

    But this might make you smile! We have a mascot for the project. A pree-3 year old black cat (with a few silver furs) half Siamese by the name of Banichi!

    I put his picture up on the Facebook page and the blog.

    • @DG, I am not going to debate the issue. My point was that it’s ultimately CJ’s decision as to what she does. But I think you came across a little too strongly in favor of the rue-fennel eyewash. Again, my opinion.

      Sable, I saw that picture of Banichi! He’s a handsome guy.

      • Dragonrider Gal

        @joekc6nlx And not to debate the issue right back, I feel everyone is coming across too strongly in support of what I know to be a less than honest industry with a fairly poor track record for ‘cures’ of any sort, and I want CJ well! I do agree though, it is her decision and she’ll do as she thinks best.

        I just know from my own and a number of friends and relatives very positive and successful experiences, that herbal solutions are usually far less toxic, much gentler, and usually at least as effective if not more so. I would be remiss if I didn’t urge her to at least consider alternate methodology seriously. Of course, this is my opinion as well.

  • Eyes are nothing to fool with. I only have one as well-retinal damage-and I don’t do anything without the OK from my opthalmic surgeon. I’ve had 3 eye operations and managed to save the sight in one eye.
    I’m very protective of that one eye.